Life has been beautiful, although it’s nowhere near perfect and I doubt it ever will but you are taking things slowly and enjoying every moment. In a matter of weeks, you’ll be 23. When I look back at how far you’ve come and all, I can’t help but be mad at the barren years. I call them barren years because those years you did nothing but try to run/hide from your dreams and goals. You felt inadequate, you felt unworthy. Funny thing is, you have never lacked self-love. You eat, breathe, and sleep loving you.
You were 21 when you realized that self-love didn’t translate to self-care, so you began to make a conscious effort to indulge in little acts of self-care and truth be told, self-love will do you a world of good, self-care will maintain that world of good, and most importantly, which is self-worth, will cement your belief. Valuing yourself is a foreign feeling you have had to deal with these past years. Growing up you were the most confident little girl you had ever known. You knew your worth and you didn’t need to prove anything to anyone because they all saw it. But growing up, letting life happen, losing love and relationships coupled with the pressure from peers and social media, you forgot about your own value and hence began to depreciate. The one thing, I wish you knew some years back was self-worthiness. To know and believe that you are ENOUGH because such unwavering confidence in yourself and your abilities would have pushed you to start striving to be better earlier. Self-worth should never be underrated and you have finally found yourself worthy of your dreams, worthy of your goals, and worthy of just being you without having to prove yourself to anyone.