Friday marked the first day of Yettember and like clock-work, just on time, I had a bone to pick with myself. After posting last Monday’s post about the speaking opportunity and the 5K, a participant from the conference emailed me. It may have been one of the sweetest emails I have ever gotten. She’s currently a graduating senior, extremely bright and full of potential, wants so much for herself, and check this out, she aspires to be just like me.
Yes, and it shocked me… and made me angry, because she should be better than the mess that I am. I’ve pondered about this multiple times since the email and have been berated by friends about “not giving myself credit”. This is clearly something I need to work on the coming year, and I’m trying so hard to not let this consume me… but it has
Four years ago, I expected myself to be in such a different place than I am now. I was going to be married or engaged, working my dream job, traveling and have this thing called life all figured out. Sounds wonderful right? But right now, I’m single and barely dating, I like my job enough to get up every morning and dedicate time to my assignments without completely dreading the next day, I travel… when feasible and life… I’m still lost and trying to play catch up.
But you know what? It isn’t so bad. Granted I still feel like I am missing out on life just a tad bit, but the experiences I have had, I never really thought to factor those in four years ago.
Giving myself credit for the my small achievements is something that is really odd for me to do, my eyes are always on the finish line, but I’m going to work on accepting the mini achievements now, that way I can appreciate the accomplishment of getting to the finish line.