This weekend was beyond hectic, full of activity and a whole lot of fear. I presented as one of the opening speakers at the National Society of Black Engineer’s New England Fall Zone Conference and then ran my first 5k that evening. Being nervous was beyond an understatement.
The Presentation: The Seeds of Tomorrow – Being Inspired.
It wasn’t the act of presenting that was necessarily the issue. I have no problem speaking in front of people, I actually kind of enjoy it. It’s the speaking on being “young, successful, and inspiring” that really had me on edge. In my mind… I am none of those things, I’m still trying to figure out life and get it to work with me on all of my goals and aspirations. I am still trying to figure out what the missing piece is in my life, though I have a pretty good idea what it is, I just don’t know how to tap into it. I guess, what I am saying is, I’m just me, another 20 something year old trying extremely hard to not suck at life, while maybe leaving a few imprints. In order for me to get through the presentation I took the focus off of me, and put it onto the audience. Shared a few tips on how to be inspired and phenomenal, giving a few life examples, and I mean very few, to give them a glimpse into my boring life.
Black Light Run 2013: My first 5K
Meet Maki*. She’s the Sesame Street character I never thought to befriend and has become such a huge portion of my daily life. Maki and I ran a 5K this past Saturday, something I have been wanting to do for a few years now. I honestly didn’t think it was going to happen. Either I would flake, or something (my mind) would prevent me for running this race. I’ve been kind of training for it, but have never really been able to get past 2 miles. But Saturday, I ran 3.2 miles, stopped twice: to tie my shoe lace and for Maki to ties hers. In 34 mins, we completed the 5k. My trainer and I discussed finishing in 45 minutes, I told Maki I was aiming for an hour… with three mental breakdowns happening along the way. But I completed it in 34 mins, and completely shocked myself.
It’s so funny, I’ve been telling myself that I wouldn’t be able to run this distance for ages, while Maki has told me otherwise… not once ever seeing me run. Just out of pure faith and on Saturday I did it, and I kind of feel invincible at the moment. Sort of like when I moved to New York. I told myself it would be impossible to find a job, impossible to move and be okay, and granted things have been bumpy, I moved, I found a job, and I’m living life.
So I guess the lesson from this Saturday is:
Just do it. Don’t over-think it. Just do it.
*This is a nickname, I nickname everyone now due to a few crazies finding and harassing my friends online