Currently 11/24 | Grin, Bear it & Then Reset

Time: 5:12PM
Mood: Indifferent
Eating / Drinking: Water. Apple Sauce
Listening to: Dez – Underneath Me
Missing: Sunshine + warm weather
Wishing: I could pause
Should be doing: Lord knows…
Reading: Re-reading The Gifts of Imperfection for research.
Thinking: When can I go home
Talking to: Akudo + Maki
Current affirmation: Everything is fine.
Plotting: The route back to Massachusetts tomorrow.
Anticipating: Ferguson decision | Quality time with the best brother in the WORLD!
Loving: My best-friend, she’s awesome.

This month has been one of those months that have made me want to unpack my terrible coping mechanism of isolating and disappearing. It’s been one of those months that the only thing that has been getting my by is hibernating in my best friend’s home, a countdown till my next break and the intense hours of throwing myself into work so I can escape the not so positive thoughts. It’s as though with each week that passes, the harder it is for me to fight for positivity and my consistent smile and I think it’s time for me to be honest with myself: Phenomenal Yetti has not been feeling quite phenomenal.

The truth is I’m tired. I’m a little beat down. I’m drained. I’m emotional. I’m alive, and pushing, but I’m going through it.

So I’m going to reset. Take a step back, have some me time, sleep, surround myself with the people that care about me the most, and take care of me. Like really take care of me.

See you all sometime in December. Happy Thanksgiving 🙂