Yeah… You read that right. I left Rhode Island and moved to NYC. I’m even switching jobs. I guess you could say this played a role in my hiatus, but as the equation shows, there was a lot more to it. I know some of you are wondering “WTF!?” But trust me I can explain… with a few excerpts from the private tumblr blog I kept for sanity during my hiatus.
When did you move?
– Mid April
Why did you move?
– I hated living in Rhode Island, New England even… hate it, hate it, hate it.
So Why NYC?
– New York makes me feel alive and it reminds me of being home in London (minus the best family in the world). When I am in London, I feel… creative, my ambition is on high, and I fall in love with my surroundings… even the bummy parts. New York gives me that same feeling, not to mention I am addicted to retail and the city’s culture.
– Honestly I needed a change also. I needed to do something for me, not for my parents, not for my friends, not for anyone but myself. I hated NYC before… until I visited… and then visited again, and then explored. It was kind of my way of breaking free.
Why keep it a secret from people?
– Because when I spoke of the idea certain people were just not supportive, including certain family members and close friends. It kind of came out of nowhere and no one really understood the urge. All I heard was, “it’s so expensive”, “it’s dirty”, “this is just a phase” etc. So I kept it a secret and told a handful of people. I only told my parents the week before I signed my lease – (yes I’m a terrible daughter). Keeping it a secret was probably the best thing I could have done for this huge step. I only wanted to be surrounded by people that would be supportive through-out especially since the move may have left me jobless.
I honestly think this is the most jammed-packed week of my life thus far. I have 6 interviews in the next 4 days and I am moving to New York in 2 days. I’ve spent the last few days packing while disassociating myself from the world… because I am scared someone will tell me what I am doing is a bad idea. I’m scared someone will make me change my mind. I’m scared someone will point out the flaws in my plan to force a new life, a new experience.
- Quontay tells me everyday things will be fine, sometimes I feel she’s more excited than I am.
- Though I see the concern through her facial expressions, Shannon tells me the same thing.
- My Aunty Tai reasons with my doubt every other day and assures me I am doing the right thing.
- Even Mom and Dad try and stay positive for me.
Were you scared?
– Yes, yes, and more yes! I didn’t go away for college, I barely went away for my first job. This is the first time I have been “alone” so hell yes I was scared. But there is more to it, my job gave me the okay to work from home a few days a week so I thought this move was going to easy–wrong. After I signed my lease, began to pack and booked my movers they told me they weren’t going to allow me the flexibility. Naturally I panicked… that’s when I took my hiatus, but then after much thought… I decided I was going to do it anyways. Shortly after my move, I got a job offer working in the department of my choice… so things worked out just in the knick of time!
I am beyond scared. I feel utterly alone, though the few people that know about my move throw me SO MUCH support on a daily basis. This is the biggest decision of my life, I can’t sleep over it, I am going against the orders of my boss… and my stomach is in knots. Don’t get me wrong… I am so SO so excited… but (sigh), I don’t want to fail that’s all. Everything is happening so fast. The move, the interviews, She’s A 10! I sort of feel like I’m over my head.
So… how is it?
– I think… this question will have to wait till another day… otherwise this post will be far too long!
So yeah [ exhales ] now it’s out.
P.S – To those of you that supported my every move in this decision I can not thank you enough. You know who you are and I am forever grateful to have such supportive and caring people in my life [ kisses ]. Mom & Dad, I love you guys more than words can describe ๐
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YETTI! I am so exited for you! I love this city and I know what you mean when you say it makes you feel alive. When I was living there I loved every second! I also am really proud of you for leaving and going after what you wanted. I recently have done the same thing and sort of switched gears (left my corporate job -haha yeah crazy!. no creative freedom etc.., started a new business..more new and exciting things!) I totally can relate to changing things just for yourself. Also, not telling to many people is key!
CONGRATS!!
PS. Tiye and I will be in NYC often this summer..its basically our second home in the summer. See you soon!
Thank you Denisse! Change is such a scary process! Congrats on the new endeavors in your life and whenever you guys are out here please do let me know !
You mentioned doing it a while ago, but NYC is one of those places that you can only take full advantage of once you are ready. I’m proud of you for making such a huge decision- it’s definitely tough to just pack up and leave, but sometimes it’s part of what it takes to go after what you really want.
And as for Denisse’s “P.S.”… SMH, but how sweet of her to make it seem like we’re… a cohabitating… couple… or something…. blech! lol. But we will def be in town to visit!
LOL at couple! But honestly Tiye… you guys are a package, where there is one… there is the other! Yay for visits!
And thank you ๐
yay! my home! Enjoy!
yay!
Yay!!!! It will be awesome, good for you for taking the leap of faith.
You’re neeexxtttttt lol!
Congratulations! I’m so happy for you, my family lives out that way and it is a wonderful place everyday I pray you’ll fall in love with it more and more and things keep climbing up for ya ๐ Good for you to be head strong and do you despite all your fear, you are definitely highly favored and blessed m’dear
Thank you twinny ๐
Congrats! I wish you the best of luck!
Thank you Holly!