I am not a Positive Patty.
But I’m not a complete Negative Nancy either.
I’m trying to fix my attitude towards life, like desperately trying to rectify it.
I have sad moments… which is why I came up with a Feel Good Routine. It actually came from me realizing the “routine” that took place when I sunk into bad moments: Terrible thoughts, isolation and moping.
I’m pretty confident in my future and my ability to be great, but I’m not confident in certain things such as my ability to handle emotional distressing situations.
I have fears, a lot of them. Tackling then scares them, but I’m going to do it.
I’m going through a lot of transitions, I probably don’t write about them as much as I should, but there are some things… I just want to deal with on my own.
I put a lot of pressure on myself to do better, but strangely… I kind of like the mess that is me. Which is a huge improvement.
I put on make up, I wear pretty clothes and I take instagram pictures, but I do have days when I’m not totally okay with what I see in the mirror. They’re becoming less and less every day though, I will say that.
I don’t give myself enough credit… but I want people to do so for themselves.
I hold myself to much harsher standards than I do others.
I don’t dive into the traumas of my life as much I used to because I believe in the law of attraction and speaking things into existence. I feel like the more I dwell on them, the more I attract negativity. It’s been proven multiple times lol.
I contradict myself.
Why am I telling you all this? Because I don’t want any of you to think I’m perfect, that I don’t have daily struggles and that I am this new extremely positive person. I don’t want to come off as fraud. I’m a lot more positive than I used to be, and I’m still working on it. I don’t hate what I see in the mirror… but I’m not all the way comfortable either. I write these positive things not to show off or to force you into a good mood, but so I can look back on it and remind myself how good I felt the day I shared a positive experience. For me it’s easier to remind myself of the bad times, so I use my blog to remind me of lessons learned and blessings I’ll soon forget.
I’m not looking to play “victim” either, I just really wanted to clear the air. I’m a work in progress, just like most 20-something-year-olds.