I am not going to bore the blog-world with my new years resolution, simply because like I stated before I’m not into the whole waiting till the clock strikes 12 to make a change in my life that I can make now or at anytime I choose to. But you are in luck for a reflection. Again? Yes, damn it again 😛 ! Here’s my reflection from 2011
Seen this movie? It was my flight entertainment yesterday afternoon (after watching two rounds of pitch perfect!) and it was… nothing short of touching, amazing and the perfect description of high-school anxiety. It was various aspects of my life bundled into a movie. It’s the reason I am doing this reflection.
Don’t worry, there will be no spoiler alerts, but I will share what I learned from 2012:
- It’s okay to be scared, it’s okay to have anxiety… it’s how you deal with them that counts. In the beginning of 2012, isolation was my coping mechanism If I was in a terrible mood I’d isolate myself, completely shut down and shut out the world. Gradually I’ve kind of sort of opted for another solution to dealing with my down in the dumps days or weekends. My favorite one by far? The family and friends reset button.
“I’ve come to realize, that there is no rush and it’s okay to step away for a little bit. Life will be there when I get back.”
- Being able to be present… in my present. Nediva said it perfectly before we ran into our funny homeless friend, “Whatever we’re stressing about, it’ll be there when we get back.” Living in the now is something I have always struggled with, and it took this mini break my Diva to experience “living in the now”. I spend so much time with my head in either the past or the future, I forget to enjoy my blessings within my now. The most I worried about this week was how much damage I did to my bank account while letting my shopping habit get a tad bit out of hand. Besides that, it was laughs, upon laughs… and food.
- Learning to take risks and I’m not just talking about the really huge automatically life changing ones. I’m talking about the mini ones like making a new friend. Meeting new people is extremely nerve-wrecking for me, it’s like the first day of high-school all over again. I’ve met countless people this year, including 3 from my travels this week. I hardly ever make the effort to keep in touch which I’m slowly working on. Yesterday I complimented an American Airlines stewardess for the way she handled an impossible customer. Her name is Nisirine. Yesterday I flew FIRST CLASS back to New York, because she appreciated that I noticed her patience. I will continue to make friends.
“We accept the love we think we deserve”
– perks of being a wallflower
- Guys like Prince Charming really do exist. I don’t talk too much about relationships on ASSW, and I’m not sure whether I will or not, but I met a Prince Charming this summer. He chased me down for about 3 weeks, and the few months we hung out I got a glimpse of what unconditional love might look like. As much as I kept him at a distance, he kind of taught me how to love me, by loving every little flaw others said they didn’t like about me. No, we’re not together, and I don’t see that changing for a while since we now live on the complete opposite sides of the U.S. but it was the best experience of my 2012. Thanks MCL, (I know you’re reading this :-P)
- Everything happens for a reason. No explanations needed.
“You can’t choose where you come from but you can choose where you go from there.”
– perks of being a wallflower
As for 2013? I don’t know what is in store, and I’m honestly not sure if I’m ready for this year, but I’m going to tackle this year as I would any other new obstacle in my life: confused and scared as hell! Just Kidding!
Happy New Year Guys (kisses) !0